So many thoughts, So many questions and countless tears....... / Debbie Landrum No One Has The Slightiest Clue (momma) My dearest one and only C.J., momma know's you are the safest hands you could ever possible ever be in but it just don't seem right I keep hoping on false hopes that this is all a dream and you will be right back to me, but then all in the same thought I know it's just a thought of hopeless dreams. it's a sad lonely day in the country for me baby, the sky is so pretty here cj. I've listened to people tell me that you are looking down on us and if so cj you know without a doubt that I will never give up on you. If you are looking down on us from the heavens then you also know what a messy situation I am in and all thats going on down here. The one thing I do know for sure baby is that every minute that goes by is one more minute closer to you. You are so young cj, Why couldn't it have been me god chose to take instead of you, your life was just beginning, I'm so sorry you didn't get to get your drivers lic. I listened to you talk about getting your drivers lic. ever since you were seven years old, You favorite toy as a baby C.J. was old keys.well baby you were only two days away from getting them, before you were taken from us. I bet I could find thousands of keys in the drive way on beverly drive.You were looking so forward to school starting, you were going out for football and there is know doubt in my mind that you would have been a great boxer. You often told me, well you told me daily " Momma...... If I'm going continue boxing I'm gonna Do It Big" baby, I know you would have been the best. I just need closure CJ, I'm totally nub to any thing and everything right now, I'm so bitter and don't even care anymore. thank goodness I have your sister. Since she has moved out I have really been fit to be tied, she's doing awesome, you would be proud of her. with you gone and amber moving out I am really lost. All I have know since I was 17 was just being a mother and now I have no one to mother over, I really don't know what to do with myself. I could sit here all day trying to explain my feeling and thoughts to you cj but it would be never ending, and sometimes I wonder whats the point know one will ever no mussless understand. It sucks CJ, I'm going to try to call your sister in a few minutes , you know how she is baby she'll sleep all day. I just wish you could be here looking up with me instead of down on me. I love you baby more than words could ever tell... I'll never give up. forever in my heart baby.
Red is the color set aside for Love It represents the heart filled with life-giving blood My love never ends as I am In thought of you It is gentle, longsuffering, kind and true
As I looked ahead in the vastness of time I knew that you would come to be mine I ong for the day when we will be together again When I say, come my child, welcome in
The times you willhave as you dance around the throne singing and laughing, so glad to be home Excited and joyful you will be Your hearts filled with wonder and delightful glee
There time will have no boundry And we can be together for all eternity Your love I do cherish and will reward in kind All my love to you, my sweet Valentine
I Will ALways Love You...
its been 1 year, 6 months, and 1 day / Summer Booth (girlfriend) HEY MY STUDMUFFIN! I GOT A LIL UPSET YESTERDAY B/C IT MADE 1 YEAR AND 6 MONTHS!!!.its so hard goin to school everyday and seeing cody!! not knowing what actually happened kills me inside!!! ever since you left this earth i have made some VERY BAD choices!! i know your watching down on me and you've seen everything i've done!!! i regret so much that its not even funny!! yea well valentines day is coming up and ill never forget when u sat at the gate and gave ain-clair that little dog and candy for me!!! i loves that so much!!! when i saw it in my room i cried and then laughed b/c u spelled my name wrong!!! that didnt matter to me...it just made it mean so much more!!!! of course i ate the candy but i still have the little stuffed dog!!!! i promise i will come see u on valentines day ok!!! well i love you so00o0o0o s0o00o0o s0o0o0o0o much c.j.!!!!!!!same a spot for me up there ok!!!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!! LOVE BEAUTIFUL...
hey,baby i'm sorry i have not been here in awhile but, it hurts really bad to know this is the only way to communicate with you i hate living so close to the people responsible for you not being here.i miss your big hug the most of all c.j nothing will ever be the same here without you life just don't mean anything anymore for me and sooo many other people at least i know you are safe in gods hands now and you will never be hurt again.c.j. sooner are later that punk will talk and when he does we'll all be there with a vengence to make sure he pays and the other ones who don't seem to care i know you know who they are and trust they will pay oneway are the other.. i love you my man.. forever your nanny
JUST SAY ILOVE U / CODY WAGUESPACK (BEST FRIN )
HEY CJ WE DID EVERYTHING TO GATHER I MISS U SO MUCH I MISS WHEN WE WHERE YOUNG RIDING OUR BIKES GOING FISHING I WISH THAT U WHERE HEAR I NO U NO THAT I DID NOT MUDER U MY MOM LOVED U LIKE HER OWN WE WHERE BEST FRINS SINES I WAS 5 I LOVE U SO MUCH UR MOM DOES NOT LIKE ME ANY MORE I STEEL LOVE HER GOD KNOWS WHAT HAPPEN AND U NO WELL ILOVE U SO MUCH AND MISS U ALOT I WALK TO THE BUS STOP WHEN ITS RAINING AND SOME TIMES WIAT ON U BUT U NEVER COME I LOVE U TALK TO U LATER
Hey, C.J. Well, Robert, Fallon, Daddy and Brenda all say hello. And yes Robert and Fallon had a beautiful little baby girl. She's beautiful because she looks like her Aunt Dana. But anyway Christmas is almost here and we wish that yu ere here to spend it with us. We all miss you sooooo much. With all of our love, Dana and the O'Ragan family.
Mr. Bobby says Hey / Dana O'Ragan (neighbor)
Hey CJ, I just want to tell you that i know my dad didn't come to the services, but he thinks about you everyday. He said he just couldn't do it and he's sorry. He is always saying how you use to come over and see if Brenda was cooking or ask where was Robert? He even says you would ask to if he needed anything done so that you could make some money. And sometimes he would make you do stuff but then others times he would tell you no and give you some anyway, that's if he had it on him. My dad loved you so much. He use to say when your mom would be calling for you " Boy, you better go see, or your mom is going to beat ya butt." So this is for daddy, he loves ya CJ.
Just missing you / Chris Sentilles (He was like my little brother ) Things just haven't been the seem without you around. I can never forget the night I got the phone call from my mom. It still all plays out like it was yesterday in my mind when I think about it. It felt like my heart stopped beating for a minute and I didn't want to beleive a word that was said. I try not to think about that day to much and ALWAYS remember the fun times we shared. You are a true freind and that could never be taken or replaced. I will carry around that in my heart till the day it stops beating. Justice will be found admist all of this and the people responsible will pay, they know who they are and god won't let that go unrecognized when there time is due. I love you so much lil buddy and wish you could hear my prayers sometimes. You are always on my mind and know that I am always praying for you and your family. Your big bro~~~Chris
A neighbor eveyone should have!!!!!!! / Dana O'Ragan (Like a Big Sister )
Hey CJ. You were like a little brother to me. I love you sooooo much. I remember the first thing that you would see when you pulled on Beverly was your butt walking down the road. And if you saw us in the yard or in the pool you would come over and jump right in. No questions asked. And when I watched you I use to beat your butt if you did something wrong. Which was almost everyday. But you made me laugh and your parents were like parents to me and a big brother and sister. Amber was like the sister I never had and ya'll were a gift from God. I wish that everyone could have the joy of having neighbors like ya'll. I wish that I could bring you back but you are in a better place now. I will always remember when you came over after Alana was born and you asked to hold her and she was beening shy. I thought that was cute and she would say, " You bad!" That was all she really said at that time but it fit you just right. Well, I love you with all my heart and I will never forget you. You meant sooo much to my family.