"Website - under construction"


I Would like to thank the quest who added a picture to C.J.'s
site, If anyone would like to add a pic please feel 
free to do so and please let us all know who is adding the pic, 
someone out there may have pictures of 
C.J. that I do not have or have not ever seen; It would be greatly appreicated if you could share them with us. 
Thank you and God Bless.

This memorial website was created in the memory of our loved one, Christopher "C.J." Wild who was born in Florence, Alabama on August 06, 1990 and passed away on August 04, 2005 at the age of 14 just two days before his 15th Birthday.. We will remember him forever.  Although C.J. was born in a little town in the very north west corner of Alabama He spent his entire life growing up in Covington, Louisiana in the Lake Ramsey subdivision. 
          This candle will burn Forever......
                                      
I would like to thank everyone, who has visited C.J.'s Website,
To all of his friends, I really do apprecitate the time you have taken to visit here,
His website was made not only for C.J. and myself, This was made for all of you as well, Trust me C.J. will know you have been here, I have not ever been a very religious person but I pray several times day and night as I talk to C.J. and I do tell him about each and everyone of you guy's that are visiting. So, just remember this site is for you too, So Please for C.J.'s sake DON"T BE SHY!  If you have any pictures of C.J. you would like to share please do it. You can e-mail or leave a message anywhere on this sight and I can help you get this pictures on his website.
I would like to post pictures of all of c.j.'s friends who visits, so if you don't mind C.J. would love to have you in his album after all this is about C.J. and if you knoew C.J. you were a part of his big hearted life.  Thank You, C.J.'s Mom
                                                          
Please be patient, there is alot more to come soon...... Thanks Debbie

Soon I will be letting all of you know about what happend to my son..... Atleast what I have been told happend to him...   This will not be a easy thing for me to do but I am begging anyone out there that may have any information as to what really happend to my son... I am working on getting rewards posted in the St. tammany area as well as in the Gulfport Area for any information I can possible use so my son, maybe your grandson, maybe your nephew, maybe your cousin, maybe your boyfriend, maybe your bestfriend, maybe just your friend, maybe a friend of a friend, maybe a neighbor, maybe just someone you heard about, or C.J. just might have been your enemy, I know what he meant to me and he deserves to REST IN PEACE.  With C.J.'s murders out there he nor I will never be at peace.   I would like everyone out there to know that C.J. did not do this to himself, and know one will EVER, EVER make me beleave that he did.  Someone out there knows what happend to my son and trust me you know who you are, I will stop at nothing to see that my son will rest in peace.   A person can run for a while but the problem is still there and the person running will have to pay, so, hide and just wait for me to seek..................... 



Prior to August 4, 2006 , I lived a happy life.  Then my world changed. I now live in a world that is full of murder, fear, and suspicion.

How many of you have experienced the cold fact of murder? 
How many have received the telephone call telling you that your child who you love more than anything has been murdered?  
Have you ever experienced this shock?  Have you heard the screams and then realized it was you screaming?

How many of you would like to hold your child one more time, knowing that you can't?  All you want to say is "I love you", one more time, but that isn't possible.

How many of you walked in a daze and attended the funeral and watched yourself die inside?  Have you felt what it's like? Do you know that from the moment your child dies that the person you were has also died?  I will never be the same and I will always want that final good-bye.  I smile and try to look normal, then suddenly I'm filled with such grief that I find myself curled up on the floor cring for C.J.    I feel such pain that is so raw and true it's hard to get through it.  I feel anger and pure hatred and there is nothing I can do about it, and I feel such a loss that I know I shall never get over.  I feel guilt and I know I will never get the answer to "Why my child"?  I'm sure there is no answer to that question.

I think the worst part of all is imagining the pain and fear that C.J. was in before he died.  It tears me to pieces knowing that I wasn't there to protect C.J. in time of need.  I hear the haunting cries, Crying out for help and the nightmares are constant.  I amafraid to sleep.  I pace the house at night time while everyone else is asleep. I relive the murder over and over in my mind.  My son was such a beautiful child and handsome young man.  He was a good person.  He was my one and only son.  He never met a stranger and was a friend to everyone who ever met him.  I love my son and miss him. I miss him just calling and saying hey "MoMMA Earl" and "What'sss Upppp!". or just telling me about his day.  I just don't understand..  I gave birth to C.J. I nursed him. I helped him learn to walk and talk. we did everything together He was my friend as well as my baby boy.  He was my SON.  Oh, I miss him so much.  How could someone kill him..they had no right.

I try to go on but as the holidays, C.J.'s bithday and as the anniverary of the death my son approaches I feel I am beingthrown into a deep depression.  I try to close myself off from everyone and everthing. I try to hide my pain from them.  I know my friends do not want to mention C.J. for fear of upsetting me, it's like he was never born.  But he was born. He was a wonderful, loving, caring person and I do not want anyone to forget him.  The world was a better place and I was a better person for having know my C.J. - Christopher Joseph Wild.





PEOPLE ASK ME HOW I'M DOING..
PEOPLE ASK ME HOW I'M DOING AND I SAY THAT I'M OK.
THE FACT IS THAT I'M NOT...MY PAIN WORSENS EVERY DAY!
I WONDER WHAT IF I HAD SAID,OR OF ALL THAT COULD'VE BEEN DONE. IF I HAD ONLY KNOWN YOU'D BE GONE,MY PRECIOUS,LOVING SON. SOME CAN'T SEEM TO UNDERSTAND AND THINK I SHOULD GO ON. BUT HOW CAN I DO SUCH A THING WHEN A PART OF ME IS GONE. THEY SAY THAT IT GETS EASIER AND YOUR BURDEN IS LESS TO BARE. I JUST CAN'T BELIEVE THAT'S TRUE WHEN ALL YOU LOVED'S NO LONGER THERE. I PRAY THAT GOD WILL EASE MY MIND AND SHOW ME HOW TO JUST GO ON AND GIVE ME BACK THE HEART HE TOOK THE DAY HE CALLED YOU HOME. ALTHOUGH MY HEART IS BROKEN AND MY TEARS OVERFLOW, I TRY TO HIDE THE SADNESS SO NO ONE WILL EVER KNOW. PRETENDING'S JUST NOT EASY WHEN YOU KNOW NOT HOW TO SEE, THE REASON YOU ARE HURTING ...WHY'S THIS HAPPENING TO ME?  I'LL NEVER SEE YOU GO TO SCHOOL OR HAVE CHILDREN OF YOUR OWN. THE LINK THAT MADE MY LIFE COMPLETE IS NOW FOREVER GONE. I'LL TRY TO BE MUCH STRONGER AND KNOW THAT YOU LIVE ON. ALTHOUGH I KNOW YOU'RE THERE WITH GOD, I FEEL SO ALL ALONE. FROM THIS DAY FORWARD I HAVE TO SEE THAT YOU REALLY NEVER DIED.FOR AS LONG AS YOU LIVE INSIDE MY HEART YOUR MEMORY'S STILL ALIVE.


A letter from Heaven

My Dearest Family,
Some things I'd like to say
but first of all to let you know
that I arrived okay.

I'm writing this from Heaven
where I dwell with God above
where there's no more tears or
sadness, there is just eternal love.

Please do not be unhappy
just because I'm out of sight,
remember that I'm with you
every morning, noon and night.

That day I had to leave you
when my life on Earth was through,
God picked me up and hugged me
and He said "I welcome you.

It's good to have you back again,
you were missed while you were gone,
as for your dearest family
they'll be here later on.

I need you here so badly
as part of My big plan,
there's so much that we have to do
to help our mortal man."

Then God gave me a list of things
He wished for me to do,
and foremost on that list of mine
is to watch and care for you.

And I will be beside you
every day and week and year,
and when you're sad,
I'm standing there
to wipe away the tear.

And when you lie in bed at night,
the days chores put to flight,
God and I are closest to you
in the middle of the night.

When you think of my life on Earth
and all those loving years,
because you're only human
they are bound to bring you tears.

But do not be afraid to cry,
it does relieve the pain,
but remember there would be no flowers,
unless there was some rain.

I wish that I could tell you
of all that God has planned,
but if I were to tell you,
you wouldn't understand.

But one thing is for certain,
though my life on Earth is o'er.
I am closer to you now
than I ever was before.

And to my very many friends,
trust God knows what is best.
I'm still not far away from you,
I'm just beyond the crest.

There are rocky roads ahead of you,
and many hills to climb,
but together we can do it
taking one day at a time.

It was always my philosophy
and I'd like it for you too,
that as you give unto the World
so the World will give to you.

If you can help somebody
who is in sorrow or in pain,
then you can say to God at night
my day was not in vain.

And now I am contented
that my life it was worthwhile,
knowing as I passed along the way
I made somebody smile.

So if you meet somebody
who is down and feeling low,
just lend a hand to pick him up
as on your way you go.

When you are walking
down the street
and you've got me on your mind,
I'm walking in your footsteps
only half a step behind.

And when you feel the gentle breeze
or the wind upon your face,
that's me giving you a great big hug
or just a soft embrace.

And when it's time for you to go
from that body to be free,
remember you're not going,
you are coming here to me,
And I will always love you
from that land way up above.

Will be in touch again soon.
P.S. God sends His Love
Signed, your son.



If anyone out there would like to share anything please, 
email me @ debbie@shuttershotts.com